jobs jobs jobs...

...everywhere. what's a girl to do? i've never had to make this big of a decision before. i married my first boyfriend, went to the first college that accepted me, left and went to the first college that accepted me after that, went to the first graduate school that accepted me. and now i have multiple job offers and both have such positive aspects, i'm having a hard time choosing.

i think i know what i am going to do, but part of me is scared to let those other offers go and have no fall back in case i made the wrong decision. just relying on a whole lot of prayer right now...

graduation...

...it is done. i completed my classes. i've started interviewing for jobs. and i walked in my school's graduation ceremony. i officially have a master's degree. and it is the most surreal experience of my life. right now, it just feels like normal summer break. like in eight weeks i'll be in the office supply section of target stocking up on spiral notebooks and ticonderogas. but no. any day now my entire world focus will shift when someone calls and says they want me.

want me to be a speech therapist. for realizies. to really actually help people. on my one. and then also pay me for it and not give me homework. i feel like my adulthood is just starting to begin and i can't wait!

fun thrift store find...

from the 1930's. the information is totally obsolete, but it's a fun read and looks great on the bookshelf!

omg spin pins.

everyone go buy them now. they are amazing. i have a giant mop of curly frizzy hair on my head and it always looks fabulous when i straighten it. but i don't always have an hour a day to devote to just the top of my head, so i'm always looking for a cute way to put it up.

enter the spin pin. i bought them at target on a whim and i'm so glad i did. these two twisty pins keep my whole mess of hair in a super cute bun all day. stick a flower pin back there and i look like i'm actually rocking a look (instead of hiding my frizz!).

i'll make sure to post pics this week, but seriously, they rock. i can't wait to get a job just so i can wear them to meetings and rock my super professional persona!

pre-buyer's remorse....

....anybody else? argue with yourself for every little thing you want to buy, even when it costs very little? i have done this my whole life. i can remember being 8 years old at a toy store with my birthday money for hours, refusing to buy a single thing. and i'm not one of those people who are all about money. if hubby merely suggests that he thinks something is cool, i run out and get it for him. when i visit my mom for a long weekend, i love going out to eat with her, shopping, etc.

but when there is something that i really want, i find it almost impossible to just buy it. and the more i want it, the more i convince myself i shouldn't get it. i'm not sure if i don't think i deserve it (cause i don't feel that way overtly, at least) or what. but it's stopped me from getting a few great pieces for my house or my closet. i can barely buy lipstick at the target because my FAVORITE shade is like 7 bucks, and i know i can get something else cheaper (but usually uglier. and then i WASTED money buying the cheaper lipstick i hate because i go back for my fav anyway). and i know hubby gets annoyed having to constantly reassure me that it's okay to get something.

so yesterday, I DID IT! i wanted a pair of shoes, and only had to argue with myself for 10 minutes before i (with hubby's encouragement) pulled the trigger. and now i can't wait for them to come in. because for 50 bucks, you can bet i will be wearing these bad boys with everything!

so, anybody else? have a tough time "splurging" on things you really want?

i've wanted oxfords forever! from modcloth.com

i'm pretty sure....

that the people who work in my front office think i have some sort of cocaine smuggling or money laundering ring. i get a package that i have to pick up from them like, 3 times a week. but what am i supposed to do? NOT shop at the online goodwill auction website? chaw-right.

yesterday i got 4 packages (2 of them were gifts from my mom) and i could see the office lady shaking the package ever so slightly, trying to get a peek inside.

little does she know it was just resume paper and a pen made from recycled water bottles.....but maybe if she thinks i'm the head of some orange county crime family, she'll stop "forgetting" to send maintenance guys over to fix my dishwasher....perhaps i'll put a package in the outgoing mail with some fake horse hair coming out....

happy. and scared....

hubby gets a few bonuses each year, and since we are a single income house, that money usually just sits in the bank until we slowly start depleting it as bills grow and small emergencies arise. but hubby and i talked about it, and we agreed i could spare a small (tiny, teeny) chunk of it to prepare myself for my professional internship that i'll be starting this semester. nothing too fancy, just a couple of nice outfits to wear and some good makeup so i won't have raccoon eyes and smeared lips when i visit all my after lunch patients.

as i ran around town getting the best deals on this lipstick and those shoes, i started thinking about life right now. and i think i am absolutely the happiest i have ever been. i'm graduating in may this year, i'm just a couple of weeks away of starting a real internship in something i've been working toward for 6 years. i'm doing well with my new year's resolutions- i'm down five pounds and my skin has never looked better! i've struck a good balance between gaming and tv time and studying for my comprehensive exams. i spend all day with my adorable kittens and all evening with my amazing hubby, who was recently promoted to job that makes him excited to work each and every day. and now, i have cute dresses and department store make up, to boot. life. is. good.

BUT. oh man, in 5 months, my life is going to change in major way! and yes, supposedly it's going to change for the better. in theory. but theory does not always translate to real life. need i reminded you of the failed experiment we call communism. things are so good and i'm so happy right now, that i can't imagine anything better. thus, any change will be bad and i want to reject it...

i know that isn't logical and being out of school will probably be great. but i'm starting to get pretty freaked out...(emphasis on pretty, cause seriously- between my new skin care regime and that fancy pants foundation, i'm looking good today!)...