i'm a linus now.

christmas this year was great! hubby got me the cutest sunglasses and a bunch of little things i wanted (including a stocking full of coffee). my best gift, hands down, was the new pentax digital camera he got me. it's designed to look like a vintage camera, and has all kinds of filters and effects that let me make the pictures look like they are from a toy camera, but no more pesky film. and yes, i do love my holga. but she let me down at my birthday when she decided not to take a single picture. now i can be positive every special moment will be documented.

 here's me pretending to take a picture, and here are some pictures i actually took messing with the new settings:

i love charlie brown christmas. a lot. my mom got me this clock as an early gift. every hour, it chimes by playing a song from the special :)

this year, however, i felt christmas was a tad anticlimactic, which made me a little sad. all my life, christmas has been the greatest day of the year. usually this meant i got a little sad at the end of christmas night, but i had never felt indifferent before.

so hubby and i got to talking, and i realized this was a good thing. christmas didn't seem as magical because i no longer need one holiday season to be the highlight of my year. for the first time in my life i am completely and utterly happy. and what's one day of cheer compared to a whole life? i mean, i'm married to an amazing man, we have the world's cutest kittens and now a great apartment. i'm on my last leg of school before i start my real career and we have real income which leads to owning a home and having a baby. i'm going through the hiring process of a new job i'm really excited for. and in the last six months, i feel like i've really grown comfortable with who i am as a person and i've been letting that show through. and surprisingly, people still seem to like me. hubby is in love with his career, and we're finally working on the fun financial goals like buying a car and saving for a house.christmas is now just the cherry on top of the sundae, not the whole enchilada. or as hubby put it, i'm no longer a charlie brown. i'm a linus now.